YA ALLAH,HELP ME

everyday i always thinking about it..and i become afraid to face it..really..just like the first time i got into MOZAC's hostel..i just cant live alone there..like a baby,dont want to be left behind..the same feeling comes again..IIUM..I have to meet strangers... again..i hate it very much..but i have to get into this kind of situation..i hate city and urban life..very much..i hate traffic,i hate couples everywhere..i love to live alone..like uptown..live in just a small house..playing with my cats..busy with my own world..no one can conquer me..get busy with ibadah..cool..calm..love..family..parents..i like to live in this feeling.. i'm a coward person..eventhough i dont want to be like that..what should i do now..o ALLAH..please help me.. You're all the things for me..

siapa tahu apa yang akan terjadi pada masa depan..melainkan Allah..and ,i'm very afraid of my future..what will it be?how?..huh..all this things just ... messing in my head..make me worry..getting headache right now..

i dont know what i've said..really crazy..with mixed language..(aka bahasa rojak)..malay lah..